Debt and Depression

Happy New Year!!

Hey, I made it to graduate school! It is just costing me a fortune is all. Firstly, because I decided upon a private school and secondly because I decided to go out-of-state.

And really, it's not MY education. The bank owns it like it owns your house when you have a mortgage. Not a very comforting thought eh? It is more like the bank owns me. Welcome to the new slavery. Ay yay yay! I do not really want to think about how long it will take to pay off my loans...

Rather, I am thinking how I can come up with an app that will pay for another year of schooling here and pay off my mum's house so she can retire and enjoy her late years of able-bodiness. Too, I would like to get a house for at least one of my sisters so she can have some stability while raising my niece.

What is in it for me? This master's programme is just a step toward the Ph.D. I will earn this ultimate credential before I gain half-century status. By golly, I have one more decade to fulfill that endeavour! And then I can tick off that box marked "Dr." versus "Ms."

Having said that, you understand that I am way past consideration to donate my ova to finance my educational goals. I thought of some other avenues but I have to maintain a reputable name for myself for where I want to go...

But c'mon! Can you imagine how entertaining I would be doing clown burlesque? And in MADhattan, too. I am still doing the martial arts and the hula hooping classes so who knows. My various recreational fancies may actually pay off some day.

Until then, I continue with the same ole song of woe and ways of folly. There is hope for me folks, don't give up yet. If I do not find my niche, I will carve it. May brillance shine on...

Cheers!!